no big surprise

it's labor day and the kids are supposed to be with their dad. he hasn't showed up. i left a few messages and he hasn't responded. i finally called his dad's house - sounds like he didn't even sleep there last night. i try to give the benefit of the doubt but it's really hard to believe this is anything other than plain old selfishness.

i had plans. as usual, i put them aside when he doesn't follow through. it's extremely frustrating. what's the point of having a parenting schedule if it's not adhered to? what's the point of making plans, when i have to continually cancel them? it's not fair to the children, its not fair to me, and it's not fair to the people i make plans with. there is really no way of enforcing the parenting schedule, either. if he chooses to be flaky and unreliable, i have no choice but to live with it.

so what should i do? not make plans? automatically assume that he is going to cancel or simply not show up?

i am battling feelings of anger and irritation. it's easier said, than done. what's really sad is that i've stopped telling the children that their dad is coming to pick them up because there have been too many disappointments and hurt feelings.

it's been over an hour. i suppose it's time to adjust my plans and figure something else out. when this happens, i always want to do something extra special and fun because my heart hurts for my children. i am grateful that they are so unaware.