my treat

i had a terrible day, yesterday. it had been a long and difficult day with the children, and then i had a nasty confrontation with alien (my soon-to-be-ex-husband). it was over the phone and the kids didn't hear it. to top it all off, it was his night to have the children. i put on a strong and confident front, but as soon as they drove out of sight, i went into the house and fell apart. it's very difficult to deal with such adversity then come into an empty house. i needed someone to talk to. the person i most wanted to speak with is the one person i can't speak to right now, so i called my parents. it was good to vent a little, and then they had to go.

i went out to the backyard and sat on the bench swing. it is so peaceful and beautiful there, and i am so very grateful for it. it's times like these that i need peace more than ever. i didn't want to wallow in my anger and sadness, so after about ten minutes of swinging and pondering, i grabbed my scriptures and left to go for a drive.

i drove by my church building. i was hoping someone would be there so i could go inside and read. for some reason, i just wanted to be there. no one was there, so i continued on. i drove past gino's the italian restuarant i always drive by but have never been to. i made a mental note to try that place out someday. i ran a couple errands and was about to drive past gino's again. this time, i turned into the parking lot and went inside. i was really hungry and decided to treat myself. it had been an awful day - lots of sadness, lots of challenges. i told myself i deserved it, so i bought some food and took it home.

i laid out a picnic for myself in the beautiful backyard. it was just enough to lift my spirits. the food was insanely delicious - gnocci in red sauce, caesar salad, bread and orange soda. holy cow, that was the most divine gnocci EVERRRR. the guy made the sauce for me from scratch (it better be from scratch, at that price!). the only thing that would have topped this experience would be if i had a certain someone to share it with. i made another mental note: take him to gino's, first chance i get. *smile*



i wish i would have saved some gnocci for today's lunch, but i was way too greedy last night. *yummy!!*