moving day

it's 8am. the children have been dressed and bathed (not in that order). i am feeling happy, although my body is completely drained of energy from the lack of food and sleep. it's been a very chaotic, sloppy, incoherent kind of week as i've struggled to watch children, get bills paid, pack and keep up with school.

ah, school.

my brain is completely fried. can i just tell you how difficult it is, going back to school while being a "single" mom, AND doing childcare AND moving?!? yeah. somehow, i have managed to stay on top of things - barely. i have a paper due this saturday and i honestly did not think i'd be able to turn anything in. the assignment requires me to interview an educator and none of my contacts returned my calls or were even available. seems like everyone and their dog is on vacation right now. sheesh. anyway, at the last minute, someone came through for me. hallelujah!! i am thrilled that i will be able to complete this assignment. i tell ya, i can't stand turning in less than stellar work. however, sometimes - with this crazy life i lead - i have no choice other than mediocrity. sad, but true. at this point, i just want to pass.

because of the insanity which is my existence, i've been moving boxes over to the house whenever possible. i'd pack a few, then bring them over. sometimes i've even managed to unload them and bring empty boxes back. still, here i am on moving day, and there is still so much to pack - and i have run out of boxes. the men from church are coming at 6pm today to help, so i am going to work my butt off today (yeah, that thing doesn't seem to want to stay attached).

so, i am absolutely exhausted - but happy. today, i move into a house. the last time i lived in a house, was more than a decade ago, in the house i grew up in. there is nothing to stop the tears, when i think about my children being able to grow up in a house. this is huge. i don't know how to properly express the joy i feel, when we go over there and i watch my children run about freely in the backyard, or jump and stomp about in the house, with no fear of repercussions from downstairs neighbors. i feel so much love for the one who made this dream a reality for us.

the sweet lady who lived below us moved away. she put up with so much noise for several months. bless that woman!! we have new neighbors now, and like the neighbors diagonal of us, they smoke. i am incredibly grateful to be moving away from this. goodbye, apartment life!! goodbye....hopefully, forever.

i've thought a great deal about moving into this house - and staying in it for many, many years. i have envisioned so many memories that lay against the landscape of my future. my heart swells, as i daydream.

well, i suppose i should end this blog and get to work! today is a good day. *smile*